Hey there,

Since the info on TON is low the last weeks -about 10 mails a week-
I've transposed an interview with Pete from a Dutch Rock-magazine
called WATT, back into English. Don't give me any shit about the
translation, coz English isn't my mom's tongue.

[Mon chamis, you're no longer history to me...]

See you next week,
                   Gerard.


(My comments in bracks)

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WATT: When do I need to be scared of you?

When you talk to me loger than 5 minutes. I get irritated very quick
and I hate superficial people, like journalists who come to you with 
a smile on their face and say: Nice to meet you and the moment you're
not paying attention they figuratively stab you in the back.
   Don't get me wrong: I will not avoid an itelligent conversation, 
but superficial bullshit is a waste of time to me.

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WATT: Do you have difficulties with answering personal questions?
 
Absolutely not. I like personal questions, coz I don't need to think
of an answer. With politically sensitive questions I have to take the 
consequences of my reaction in account. 
   These days I'm in a very shitty situation: My band is doing great, 
but if I make one wrong remark, I destroy the base which I've been
working on hard for the last year. Especially in Europe I have to 
reckon my words. I admit that the controverse that came with TON in 
the early days had a positive result: We got a lot of press. But I 
rather forget that past.

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WATT: What does your mother see when she looks at the lines of your
face?

Sorrow. In her eyes I'm a sad person, but that's because she's in 
grief herself. The truth is I'm very happy with everything I have:
This body and my health. I have no expectations and no dreams.
'No hope is no fear' and in that way I'll never be dissapointed.
I take what is given to me, but I'm not afraid of losing it, coz
I realise I have nothing.

[ When my mom saw Pete on tv the first time, she told me the same. 

  I talked to a beautiful goth chick last weekend *she saw the TON-
  patch on my jacket* and she told me she could have talked to Pete 
  on the Rocking Colonia festival, but she didn't dare to. She was
  afraid of him, coz he looked kinda angry and sad. 
     I'm seeing her next weekend and I think I'm gonna give her
  the Playgirl-issue *maybe then she won't be scared of him anymore!*
]    

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WATT: When do you know you love someone?

I don't think I know think I know that. There were times I thought I
loved someone, but it turned out it was only fysical. There's no such
thing as TRUE LOVE. Love is a need: You love the things you need and
hate the things you fear.

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WATT: When was your heart first broken?

I was 18. My heart has been broken 4 times, but that's just a part of
growing up. Whether you're gay, bi or straight, it doesn't matter, 
coz one day you're bound to have a dissapointed love. 
   Love is based on trust, which I don't have. Don't think I'm 
paranoid, but too many times I've had to acsertain that people are 
not to be trusted. I try to avoid pain by avoiding uncontrollable
situations, but you can't hide from certain situations, like the death
of someone you love.

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WATT: What's your worst habit?

My appetite. I don't seem to get it under control. I eat very 
unhealthy and way too much.

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WATT: Where lies your interest: in life or in death?

I don't believe in reincarnation or life after death. There are no 
ghosts, gods or devils. This is my only chance on earth, so life is 
the most important thing to me.
   When I'm dying I want to grinn and think of all the wonderful 
people I met and of all the great experiences I've had. Death to me
is total independence: You're no longer addicted to food, oxigen and 
the sun. Death is total rest, a deep calm you'll never wake from.

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WATT: Have you ever had the fear of being infected with the aids-
virus?
      
I could be infected right now and I worry sometimes. A couple of times
the condom broke during intercourse. I've had a test, happily I was 
negative, but it actually takes 6 months before it can be 
asceirtained. It's not so that I don't get any sleep from it, but if 
I was infected I would commit suicide.

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WATT: Did you get teased a lot during schooltime?

Yes, I was fat and ugly. A typical outsider. At first I had no 
reaction to the teasing, but if they kept on doing it I got 
aggressive. Sometimes I had to beat off 5 boys.

[Strange, coz when you look at some old TON pics, Pete looks so
 skinny.
] 

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WATT: Were you ever sexually attracted to a man?

I can see when a man is attractive, but I've never felt any sexual 
attraction towards men. I like women very much.

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WATT: Who do you admire?

This may sound very strange, but I have enormous admiration for Arnold
Schwarzenegger. By working very hard he has made something out of 
himself. Also for Madonna I have respect: She's talented and smart.
Both have used their talent to make it to the top.

[Strange answer indeed, but I could expect this, since he's working 
 out and trying to make a lot of money by using his talent.
] 
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WATT: What do you regret?

That I didn't go to the school of Architecture. I was 18 and didn't
know what to do with my life, so I did nothing.

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WATT: Is there something you wnat to do but can't do (yet)?

I would like to learn faster. I like languages, physics and 
architecture. Someday I want to build my own house, that's more or 
less a dream, but realistically, it wouldn't do me no harm to give up
this dream.

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WATT: What would you do if you saw a woman being raped by 3 men?

I would attack those men and secure the lady without a moment of 
doubt. Even if these men are armed. 
   I grew up with 5 older sisters, that woman could be one of them
or -I don't wanna think about that- my mom.

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WATT: What's your reaction to the following theses?:
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   * Motley Crue asked TON as support-act by hoping for extra 
     publicity, because of the controverse and not for the
     "good" music.
     
   That's possible. Motley Crue is going down at this moment, while 
   we're climbing.

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   * Peter Steele pretends to be a difficult man to seem interesting.
     I reality is boring.
     
   That's true. I am boring, but the things I talk about are hard to
   grasp for many people. It happens all the time: I tell something 
   and nobody understands it. But that's probably my fault, coz I use
   the wrong words.
   
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   * Peter Steele works better as a sex-symbol than a musical talent.
   
   Admitted, I will be in Playgirl pretty soon, but I don't regard
   myself as being sexy. The first thing that comes into my mind
   when I look in the mirror is: YUCK!!!